the realization of love

it has been my great honor and privilege to have been a member of an extrodinary group of people. for 21 years i have carried the title of 'Crouthamel'. I carry this title with pride, with honor, with respect and with enduring, unending love for my fellow members of this clan. for 21 years i have had the privilege of having a select group of people who have loved me without bounds and without stipulations. it has been my great joy to be part of this group of extrodinary people, and it has recently come to my realization just how much i love them and appreciate them.

i had a good heart to heart with my mother this weekend and along with certian heart transformations as of late i've come to the realization of just how much my parents, my brothers and my family all love me. they've stuck with me through a whole slew of crap and i've had the privlege of having them to be my foundation adn backing for all of my life. mom was very clear in her answers and speaking to me on how much i've been appecireated, loved and respected in my family. for those of you who dont know, this has been a great stumbling block for me for most of my life, i've always felt inferiror to those closest to me, and i've been happy to stand back and put my feelings of inferirority to the back of my mind in order to be the supporter of my group.

however, recent events have given me a broader look at my life and i took the opportunity to have lunch with my mother on saturday after i got back from one of my bestests Katies brial party thingy. i sat and explained the changes i was going through and like the wonderful and extrodinary woman and mother that she is, mom explained the things i needed to hear. she told me that things were exactly they should be, that i was loved, that my brothers loved me and respected me, that i was their role model and that no matter what has happened in the past, that they (my ENTIRE family) love me and are beyond proud of me. its been such a blessing to have them in my life, i know that things are going to just get better and better and that no matter what, i've got an extrodinary group of people that have my back, i'm so proud of them, i'm so proud of my mother, my father, and of my brothers. God blessed me beyond bounds with such extrodinary people...

i'm off to be a big time newspaper woman, i love my life, i love my job, and my friends and my family are the light of my life, you all are most extrodinarialy loved!