Seeing something deeper.

i love being alive. i love breathing the morning air. i love watching the sun set from my balcony. i love this gorgeous world that God has given us.

its been a rough couple of weeks, just learning things that i need to know but don't want to know, and having a small identity crisis kinda made things difficult for me and really threw off my perception. Its come down to a lot of time spent crying out to God, asking for a direction, asking for an answer, asking for a peace. its been hard, but its been so worth it.

i've been given such a peace about everything. i've had the most extraordinary support group behind me through all of it. i see now truly what God has given me, the blessings, the marvelous gorgeous friends He has put in my path. its extrodinary. i was so scared that what i am is not enough, that the minor things about me were driving away the people that i loved, or the people that could love me. i was so scared that who i was inside was just not what the world would find attractive. i was lost in doubt and fear. i was stupid to think that i would need to change in order for the world to better accept me. how wrong could i have been?!

its about promise, making every moment count. its about walking on, whether its been the worst day imaginable or the best, and knowing, absolutely knowing that God has such promise in store. its like i've been lifted from inside out. He has taken my tears and wiped them from my eyes and He showed me what others truly think of me, that they believe in me, that no matter what i think, what i see, or what i critisize about myself, that i am an extraordinary spirit, that who i am, what i dress like, the woman i've become, its all the marvelous creation that God has intended for me to be. theres nothing wrong with me, theres everything in the world laid at my feet, just waiting to be seized in joy. a veil has been lifted, i'm so excited by what Christ has in store for me.

i've been shown what i have, i've been given such love and support by the ones closest to me. its unbelievable the feeling i have now. like every second, every decision, every new day is such an opportunity, such a blessing. its such an absolute joy to be alive. i see the world in such a way now. its like i was in the dark, about myself, where i was going and whatnot before, and God, in His glory and power has brought me into the light, into a place were everything beautiful thing, every opportunity, every second is just another opportunity to seize what He has for me. i don't fear what tomorrow holds anymore, i don't fear what comes next. its such a surprise!

i've been shown that its not what the world sees that makes things so beautiful, its looking through the eyes of God, at me, this world, His creation, and seeing that He made no mistake, He didnt create something unworthy of love, respect and affection. He created a world full of promise, full of joy and peace, a place to be taken in, to be appeciated, to be seen as God would truly have us all to see it. Love is everywhere, beauty, joy, peace, they are in everything under the sun that His glorious hands have created. He commands us to take hold, to seize every moment in joy, to worship through all things.

Look around you, look at the beauty, look past human eyes and see through the eyes of Christ, you are a glorious creature in His eyes, created with promise and potential, created in Love and embedded with passion. Seize this day as yours, take and breathe in the sweet air, revel in the warmth of the sun, remember that God is everywhere, He sticks closer than a brother, Hes in everything and His glory knows no bounds. Dont every be tricked into feeling alone, He is ALWAYS with you. Just look around, i promise, if you truly look, you'll see Him and He will be real to you as He is real to me.